I Love Being Nigerian !

I'm so sick of people always having something negative to say about Africans.

I love my Nigerian heritage and my Igbo culture.

That's what makes me, Nnenna !

I love my fufu
My chin-chin
My African attire
My moi-moi
My language [still working on getting it completely down =)]
Man I just love everything !!

Audio Push

 These guys are my current addiction. 

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Drop It For Me- Ft. YG 

RIP Davin "My Kuntry-Bear" Redmond

 On Friday, January 15, 2010 I received the most painful news ever in my life. My love Davin Redmond died in his sleep. I couldn't believe it and instantly burst into tears in my 1st period. To myself I'm thinking man this can't be, I just saw him yesterday and he was perfectly fine. He was showing me his new tattoo on his neck and I was joking around with him saying where my name is going to go. Man I shared so many memories with this guy. We went through so much together. Days in which I couldn't stand him and days I loved him so much. We recently started talking back and he wanted to be in a relationship again and I told him to prove to me that he is ready and he said I will see. I spent Friday, Saturday, and most of Sunday crying then I remembered that if he was here he would be telling me to dry those tears of mine. He had a bright future and I was just telling him how proud I am of him. Was going to play football in Alabama and he was saying how its time he get his life together. Its crazy because the worst things happen to the nicest people. Everyone knew him and just about everyone loved him especially me. I am so grateful to have had him in my life for so long.

Its crazy because you don't know how fragile life is until something like this happens to you. In one night my love was taken away from me. This just have you thinking you never know when God is ready for you or anyone else. So you have to live life to the fullest but also live life in the way you know God will be pleased with. I was talking to my bestfriend who helped me through this about how everyone at school was like they squashing the beef because its not worth it. Well I was glad to hear that but I also know that only time will tell. People sometimes say this in the spur of the moment and don't live up to it. I only hope they do and they realize that its really not worth it because that person can be gone and then you sitting there looking dumb because you had a petty disagreement with them.

I  will definitely miss that boy greatly. He always knew how to make me feel better and always said things that only him will say. We argued about his multiple girls and as I told him on Saturday morning when I woke up. "You hurting all your girls Big Pimpin'". Sometimes you have to just remember the memories you shared with the person. And in almost one year we had so many memories bae. You told me that no matter who we with we will always come first well I will still adhere by that Kuntry-Bear. You always will have that place in my heart. I know you don't want me to mourn you forever but to remember you forever. You told me a few days before you past that You made my Hall of Fame and I laughed. Well baby you really did make my Hall of Fame. You will never be replaced. January 28, 2010 is your 19th birthday and sweetie believe me I will celebrate like you are here with me. You told me you wanted to go out to eat at Atlantic Station then out to the club and I was like well damn you didn't invite me and you said girl that's why I'm telling you lol. You wanted me to come to your dinner celebration but told me I was too young to go to the club afterwards lol. I told you whatever and you said well Nnenna its not my fault you not 18 yet. I miss you Kuntry-Bear and I will always remember you. In my heart you will forever stay !!!

52 will always be my favorite number 

January 28, 1991 - January 15, 2010

Until Its Gone.

A good friend gave me some good advice a few months ago. She said.

If you gonna talk to him just know what the business is and just have him on the side

Well she told me this because it was this guy that I was talking to at the time and I really did like him. I wanted to be his girl but one problem was that he was a big flirt. This mean constantly seeing him talking to a different girl everyday. Straight up flirting with them and this use to get me so mad. I'm like how can you be saying you want to be with me but you can't seem to get it together. I always got frustrated everyday and she came out and told me this. At the time I really wasn't trying to hear it but that later changed. I kept talking to him but I stopped making him one of my priorities and at that point he became an option. I would be talking to someone and usually when he came around I will leave the person to mess with him but then I stopped. If I was busy I ignored him and finished what I had to do.

You know what is funny ?? He started to get mad and actually showed that he cared. I was like wow when you stop caring then he wants to care. He called and told me he now wants to be in a relationship with me and don't want to see me with anyone else. This whole time I'm thinking "Nigga where was you like a month ago when I really wanted to be with you and you was quite aware with that ??" Fucking with these other broads and now when you want I'm suppose to jump back on you ?? Negro please !! Boys are so damn funny. Well its too bad because now I definitely can't be with you. Feeling someone else more than I feel you and that's all because you didn't recognize what you could of had until it was too late and I was on the process of getting over you. Awww sob story. I love him and wish him the best in everything he do but a relationship wasn't gonna work at this point with us. I mean really he has a couple of months before going to school and as much as he says that he still want to be in a relationship then I can't seem to figure out how that is going to work. We are going to the same high school and couldn't even be real with each other and this suppose to work while you in college [which might be out of state] naw big dawg I'm cool =)

When things like this happens it makes you smirk and be like man he a straight dumb ass lol

AP Calculus...My Life

There was once a time when math was just plain and simple to me. The Algebra days for which I loved =). Then came pre-calculus which was not all that bad either. They build me up to crush me with this AP Calculus crap !! There are days in which I love it and find it a thrill [I'm such a dork lol. Fav subject is definitely math] then there are days I want to just rip that damn book in half !! Last night I stayed up so long to complete my Calculus homework to wake up this morning to hear that school is closed for today due to snow. Now I'm perfectly fine with that but I would of greatly appreciated it if they had told us a bit earlier so I could take my behind to bed. Last semester I got a B in there and I promised myself I would put in a 110% this semester because I want to get an A in that class. So I guess I might as well get used to the late nights doing problems and falling asleep with the book by my side =(. Also nights where I will not have time to do my favorite activity [text until I fall asleep or talk on the phone]. It will pay off in the end is something I consistently tell myself. I can't and will not settle so I will work hard to achieve success =)

Guys these days...ugh !!

Why are guys so disrespectful to females ?? I just don't get it really. I'm walking down my street to my house and this boy came out the house so loud on the phone, pants to the ground and shit. Then he has the nerves to say "Aye Girl ! ". Now I'm like who the hell he talking to but I turned around. He said "You look so familiar man.. What's your name ? Is it Tatianna ?" I replied no that's not my name. He then had the audacity to say "Oh ok you can keep walking " Now at this point I was going to say "Hunny I've been walking, I didn't stop for you so don't even hit me with that attitude big dawg " but I didn't and just laughed and kept my day going =)

Man I dislike rude ass niggas with a passion !! Why do you have to be rude, I mean really ?? No decent person likes a rude guy to let you know the truth. Another thing I really can't stand about the guys around here is the fact that when you turn them down they want to talk down about you. Really though ? I mean if someone don't like you just let it go. I understand if she coming at you wrong but if not you have no right to disrespect her just because she not into you. Rejection is a part of life sweetie so get over yourself !! And ladies need to learn how to ignore a guy if he come at you in a disrespectful tone because he is belittling you and you basically allowing it. And more than likely he will definitely continue with the disrespect through the relationship. When we give in to these guys then they continue with it and it needs to stop like really !! Along with the over sized shirts and pants which is a huge turn off to me. I like the clothes to be fitted but not too fitted that is. Baggy clothes and overly sagging pants was so the 90s come on now fit your clothes its not cute !!

I just had to get all of these off my chest because I have had enough of it already and I know many others feel the same about it.

Reggie.Reggie.Reggie

I love this guy's body. Besides from T.O. he has the best body out there to me. Its just right ;)

Man I'm a mess lol

Feb 2010 Issue of Essence Magazine !!

Throwback song.

 Man I miss the old Mariah Carey hits...I hope that her new album stay more on the R&B side and not cross all the way over to a HipHop inspired album...

Happy New Years./

Happy New Years My Loves !!!

2 0 1 0

I'm wishing everyone the best in their endeavors this year. What ever you do make sure you do it the best !! Take care of yourself so we can do this again January 01, 2011 =)

A Friend that is not worth loosing.

I should be doing this paper but I had to do a quick update ! lol

Yesterday I realized the reason I don't hold grudges against people. It's so not worth my time. It holds me down and drains me of energy. Why should I be putting myself through all of that and the person is just chilling ?? Why stress over someone ?? That's not me.. I made a promise to myself and my close "friend" that I would stop acting like a complete ASS towards him. Lately I've been kind of switching it up on him. One day we will be quite fine and the next its a different story. I don't even understand some times why I act the way I act towards him lol. I realized that I was taking his friendship for granted and he had all the right to cut me out of his life as much as I have done to him. Its time I stop being such a pain in the ass to the ones that love me the most and being nice and kind to the ones that just there for the moment. Not ready to lose a friend and keep enemies.

Resentment or grudges do no harm to the person against whom you hold these feelings but every day and every night of your life, they are eating at you

So in 2010 I promise to not take anyone's friendship or whatever for granted. I'm very grateful for every single person that I have in my life !!