AP Calculus...My Life

There was once a time when math was just plain and simple to me. The Algebra days for which I loved =). Then came pre-calculus which was not all that bad either. They build me up to crush me with this AP Calculus crap !! There are days in which I love it and find it a thrill [I'm such a dork lol. Fav subject is definitely math] then there are days I want to just rip that damn book in half !! Last night I stayed up so long to complete my Calculus homework to wake up this morning to hear that school is closed for today due to snow. Now I'm perfectly fine with that but I would of greatly appreciated it if they had told us a bit earlier so I could take my behind to bed. Last semester I got a B in there and I promised myself I would put in a 110% this semester because I want to get an A in that class. So I guess I might as well get used to the late nights doing problems and falling asleep with the book by my side =(. Also nights where I will not have time to do my favorite activity [text until I fall asleep or talk on the phone]. It will pay off in the end is something I consistently tell myself. I can't and will not settle so I will work hard to achieve success =)

Mr. Perfect ?? Bitch You Aint Perfect !!

Why is it that just about every high school girl is looking for a perfect guy?? Honey you only in high school!! It always disturb me to see girls say they looking for Mr. Perfect. What is a Mr. Perfect?? Last time I checked no one was perfect in this world of ours. So basically they are ignoring nice guys because they found a flaw in him. Well if you not Ms. Perfect then you shouldn't be looking for Mr. Perfect. We are only in HIGH SCHOOL. I understand that people do find the love of their lives in high school but most of those people didn't go around looking for love. Love is something people are trying to find at an early age for some reason. Just because your friend or whoever think they are in love does not mean that you go and look for love in any and everybody. Love isn't really all that great. It can have you doing things that you normally won't do. Some bad and some good. Another key point is that when you graduate from high school you will be out there in the world. Now you have an opportunity to meet the kind of guy you want. You have way more options than you do in high school. Most people I knew graduated and was like girl don't take those little boys in high school serious...when you graduate you will meet real men. I totally agree with this. Stop complaining about a boy being immature! He is in high school dammit...still a kid and so are you. Its time we enjoy our high school years and stop making ourselves miserable because we are on a mission to find what they call love...

don't jump stupid now.

girls these days have low self-esteem !!
so in one of my classes its just about boring and i only speak to like 4 to 6 people in there. today i walked out of class to socialize and knocked on the door for them to open it. when someone finally opened it the crew started laughing so i'm like what happened. came to find out ol' girl walked up and saw it was me and walked away haha. now this cracked me up.

now lets fast forward to like 30 minutes before that incident. we was walking back from the cafeteria and she looked two of my friends up and down and one of them was like "Who the fuck Keri looking at...". when this happened i was around the corner to begin with so i had nothing to do with it. so when we get in the class she trying to make a scene about it. getting loud but not specifying who she is referring to and we just back there laughing like is she serious ?? now she continues to pop off at the mouth for like an hour maybe to her little crew of nobodies like we suppose to care. i'm like you look dumb because obviously you not bad enough to speak up. she so call claim all year we've been talking about her. woooooo...hunny you not of that much of importance in our life please believe that. just because someone laughs does not mean that they are referring to you !! get some dam self-esteem about yourself !! don't go mouthing off to your friends like you are going to do something while you not going to do a dam thing. we just trying to avoid the drama because she is not worth suspension or anything.

i haven't said not a word about this girl but she want to act stupid with me. i'm just going to laugh it off and move on with life. Ooooo opening the door makes you bad now ?! bitch please haha

FINALS = HELL

so ready to get the hair re-done !! i mean i'm still beautiful though =)

ugh the last week of the semester and man is it crazy !!
FINALS FINALS FINALS
i officially despise that term...

today was so hectic for me. had to take my ap us history final which was LONG. then had to complete PART 1 of my ap calculus final. tell me why the hell is it even in parts ?? ugh ! tomorrow i have a human anatomy final that i think i'm not going to do so great in =(. i am currently sitting on a low A in that class and i can not and will not allow that to drop to no dam B. it will fuck with my gpa and i don't like playing with those digits haha

so unfortunately i have to miss our basketball game =(. i hope they do well !! i have some studying to do so i will get up off here

P.S. tell me why this female text my phone saying please don't text that number anymore. now mind you i was texting me because my off and on boo texted me from there who is the same one trying to "chill" with me on friday. well i didn't reply and girl chooses to call my phone up saying who this is. i'm like who is this and then hung up lol. she continues to call...smh let it go hunny

Hunny we just in High School

Now I understand that some people marry their high school sweetheart and what not but that is very rarely. Why do these girls think that they going to be with these no good boys forever?? I had to learn that you can't really stop someone from cheating they have to want to change for you. Hunny we just in high school get over it! I already know that once I graduate I'm probably not going to be messing with most of these boys that go to my school now. I mean lets be serious...once I graduate I need someone that's trying to make something out themselves. In high school I really don't care about all of that but once I enter the real world you can believe that's a necessity in a man and  most of these boys not even going to be doing anything once they graduate especially the ones that you are attracted to. If you find a good one then I am thrilled and happy for you but it don't go like that all the time. Let's stop trying to make these short term bf's long term. We just trying too hard at that point.

Live your life and stop looking for love in every boy you with. Just have fun!

The Scandal of 09

Why do people feel the need to make themselves known to everyone? The worst part about it is the fact that they getting a bad name. Seriously, get a life and stop trying to start drama. It has been so much going on this year at the school. Scandals are being revealed and nothing but drama has came out of this.

One boy made a facebook note basically putting everything out there but he didn't mention no names. Then yesterday at school it was the talk of the day. People were just mad from here to there because they felt that they were mentioned in the note and some really were. My whole thing is that we are giving him the attention that he craves. Then you have to think about it though...some of the people he put out are supposedly cool with him. They run and tell him every little thing about their personal life and they are just stupid for that. You don't have to tell people everything that goes on in your life!! Especially when the person you telling is known to run off at the mouth about people. What did you expect?? That he won't do the same with you??

I feel as though ignorance should be ignored. They learned their lesson and shouldn't get worked up about it. Let that nigga talk he aint about nothing to begin with. And lastly girls are putting themselves out and its not even referring to them. Man they just some stupid hoes!! lol. Learn how to keep your mouth close when you not sure about something because you go around looking dumb as hell. This school has nothing but drama. Its like something new pops up everyday.

What is crazy about it is that it seems as though every year the senior class always has controversy about post made on the computer. The class of 08 and 09 had theirs with an anonymous myspace page and now for the class of 10 they moved it to Facebook. People just want to leave with a bang I tell you. That's why I don't even mess with the people at the school like that just a select few. I wonder what my class, class of 11, scandal will be...hmmm!

i passed the ghsgt in writing!

i passed my georgia high school graduation writing test!! yayy me!! exceeded the standards and everything. i wasn't really worried about the writing test because its the easiest portion of the georgia high school graduation test. now i'm just patiently waiting for the spring to come around so i can get the math, social studies, language arts, and science portion out the way and find out if i am clear to graduate in may 2011. man i can't wait! just a bit nervous but i know i am capable of passing...

lets do it!!!!!!

School is becoming DANGEROUS

Now I feel so unsafe in school. That's ridiculous!! I thought school was one of those places that your parents send you to while they are off at work and they have assurance that you will be ok. Well not in this day at time especially not at the high school I'm currently attend. At one point it was just horrible there. Parents didn't want their child to attend NCHS including my mother who was against my older brother going there. But then it calmed down and got decent and together. Now its going back down hill.

In one week we have had so many incidence that its jst unsafe now. We can't even stay after school for extracurricular activities because we are scared for our lives. First we have random negroes walking into the building anytime they choose. We have so many ways to come in. Then now we having issues with weapons. Earlier on this week someone held a gun up to a student. Then today we were on lock down because someone was spotted with a gun. Police swarmed the school and everyone was searched. They even brought the wands out. It was crazy. Just about everyone was scared because we were clueless before we started to receive text messages and love ones began to call asking if we were ok because we breaking news.

It's just flabbergast me that we can't even feel safe in school!!! Something really do have to be done because someone could of gotten hurt. Its about time I leave that dam school. These children have just nothing to do with their lives anymore. They come to high school with no goals in mind and bring their childish problems to school and put others in danger. At this point i'm just tired of it. High school isn't fun anymore...its becoming dangerous.

Why Come to School??

Ok so I have one question that seemed to have irked me all day today. Why do these little boys come to high school just to skip everyday and smoke??? I just can't seem to understand. Why come? All day today when I stepped out the class I kept seeing the same boys running around the hallway. My whole thing is if you don't like school when then don't come. Now I will understand if they in like the 9th grade but these fools are like juniors and seniors. Why don't yall just drop out and stop disturbing others trying to learn!!! Then one of them felt the need to try and talk to me. Negro if you don't back up with that mess. I need a guy that's about something not a little boy that don't know what he wants from life. This just disturbed me today and I decided to vex a little. I'm better now :). I think its time I get up out that dirty ass school!!

Is Age Really Nothing But a Number??

Is age really nothing but a number?? I met this boy yesterday and like he is really cool and everything but came to find out he is only in the 9th grade! First of all he doesn't even look it at all so i'm just flabbergasted. This just had me thinking today about that phrase. Is it really true? I thought about it and was like okay well it also could depend on the person you dealing with. People mature and grow differently from others so you can't compare people. I came up with some pros and cons of talking to someone younger than you:

(A) Depending on the person you have control (if you are the type that likes to be in control.
(B) You might at times have to deal with childish behaviors. (if its just a little then you should try to make it work but if they just at the highest level of childishness then yea let that go)
(C) He will respect you more because you are older than they are (who doesn't want respect)
(D) They can bring out that child in you (is a good thing at times because those are your happiest moments.
(E) The person might not know when to be serious or not which can irk you


I do believe everyone should be given a shot and this just opened my eyes to new things. I can't stand when people be like oh well he/she an underclassmen (more popular in females). Dam you never know until you give that person a try.

P.S. I just wanted to add that i'm listening to the No Ceilings mixtape by Wayne! =)
go listen to it if you into Wayne and if you not well then don't go listen to it bitch!

Girl Is it Really Worth It??

Teenage pregnancy is growing so much these days! Its ridiculous when you have young ladies coming into high school already pregnant or already have a child at home. I just don't understand how they can be so proud of being pregnant. If I was pregnant I would be so freaking sad and depressed because of what I did. I know everyone's situation is different but in a way if you lay down willingly in a bed or where ever and have sex well sorry hunny you brought it on yourself. Girls don't even respect themselves at all these days. We have people engaging in sexual activities at school in the nastiest bathroom in the world. That shows that you don't think anything of yourself. You have no self respect and you are stupid for letting a boy convince you into having sex in school. If a guy ever approach me about sex in school he will automatically be cut out of my life. THAT'S DISGUSTING!!!

We have so many girls running around pregnant and just so proud of it knowing dam well they just made a huge mistake. Don't get me wrong the child isn't a mistake but it came a little too early. What really gets to me is the grown women who are desperately trying to have children but can't for what so ever reason there is but you have this little child who can't even support a baby just popping them out every year like its the new accessory.

Condoms are not even being used liked that anymore. I would not allow a boy no matter what to have sex with me without a condom in my life unless I am married to this person. But if I am in just a relationship especially in high school....HELL NAW NIGGA! He better strap up. Why would you let someone have sex with you with no protection??? There is so many diseases going around these days and you know the possibly consequence of the sperm getting into you. It just frustrate and confuse me but ay I guess that's the kind of young ladies being brought up these days. They have absolutely no respect for themselves. Please let's stop the growing amount of teenage pregnancy!!! That boy don't love you that much!!!! And guys stop telling females that they need some dick in their lives....baby I don't need anything in my life right now but some good education. That will feed me well thank you :).

Abuse...Punk Men!

So i'm sitting here watching the Maury Show. Sometimes all he do is the same topics over and over again..."you are the father!", "is it a man or woman", and "outrageous teen girls". Thats basically what Maury covers but don't get me wrong it is interesting at times. So today they are talking about abuse teen relationships and some of these stories are very sad. How can one sit and allow a man to beat on them and control them like they are animals not humans? I use to ask the same question too. Then I realize LOVE is such a strong emotion. Once you love someone truely you then give them so much power. So you just can't give anyone your true love. You have to know the kind of person they are because they can take advantage of you at any given minute..

One young lady on the show didn't even confide in her mother the abuse she was going through. Its so sad to see that she has no one to talk to about her issue. Men like that are so scared and dumb. Some are scared because the woman is probably the best thing they have had but is scared that they would leave. If you are a true man and truely know how to treat a woman then she wouldnt have to leave and you wouldn't have to be scared of that fact.

I'm in high school and I see boys that thinks its funny to hit on girls but they don't know all they are doing is getting in a mind set that to control a woman you have to put your hands on them. Thats not a REAL MAN. Relationship abuse is happening in high school. I see it at the school i go to and I know its not only there. Young girls are falling hard for these "boys" and i do stress boys that they would allow them to do anything and everything. Some even lie to save their boyfriends but why?? I know they aren't happy so why do they encourage it by allowing it?? But I look at these ladies as victims and I feel bad for them and wish I could change things but I just know that I will learn from them and not allow a "man" to lay their hands on me. I'm too precious for that and I know my worth even if he doesn't know it...