my single life.

so lately i've been having this nonchalant attitude towards guys. the way i see it why waste my time putting in my all when i don't know where your head at ? "man nnenna there goes that i don't give a f*** attitude again"...well i'm sorry that i've been screwed over before and just don't care as much ! Some of these guys i really do like but for some reason i can't open up to them. i think that's one of my biggest problems. i'm so guarded and at times i need to learn how to let my guard down. until i learn that i guess i will stay single. i mean i'm not complaining about it because it gives you room to really find out what you want in life.

and until i find that one guy that makes everything worth while i will be just kickin' it as usual. i don't want to be that girl that's infatuated with a different guy every week. that's one of the reasons i keep who i talk to a secret because that's none of half these folks business. if you go through my phone now all the people i talk to is in code language for all the people that like going through phones lol. they will never figure out the person i am talking to =)

anyways the birthday is coming up !! wednesday, march 17, 2010 i will officially be seventeen years old ! yayy me ! truthfully its going to feel like any other day but why not get happy still ! i might just celebrate it with the bestfriend next weekend being that his 20th birthday was yesterday. don't want to have a get together because that will be a set up but i do want to see a certain person though